Consider:

We are none of us innocent.

We all make mistakes.

We say things we shouldn’t,

And raise the stakes.

We each have our flaws,

They’re what set us apart,

But hold us together,

By mind and by heart.

We all take irritation,

From many different factors,

And some of these stimuli

May operate reactors

We can weild our differences

And throw them at our throats

Shave away at imperfections,

But think what this denotes

We could just as well indulge

In seeking out those upper sides

And we may not fall so hard

When individuality collides

We can take a course for betterment

And hold our heads alive,

Keeping upsides next to downsides

In the characters we drive

Detestable

There are things that I say, do, or don't do, that can just have me hate myself over and over again.
One of these things, in struggles between what is right and what is wrong, not only do I give up, but I run.
Because when there is no right answer, I suppose the only real wrong is to not answer at all.

I am pathetic,

Don’t deny this,

It’s true,

I stand in the shadows,

You don’t see me,

I don’t let you

You say you’re going to leave

Still, you don’t see me,

And I slip away, unnoticed,

I don’t stop,

I don’t persuade,

I don’t care;

But I do.

I care,

My actions fail to show this,

But I care

And they care,

You care,

But still you say this,

And I do nothing,

It’s not my actions that fail to help;

It’s me.

Waiting for the Rain to Fall

It's been far too long since it last rained. Granted, it snowed a whole lot, a couple of weeks back, and that's still lingering on the ground, but it's not the same. I miss the rain. It's nice. It works with writing, somehow. Now the weather's just still, and I find it hard to get my brain flowing. Anyway, I put some thoughts onto paper- I think the result has some issues with flowing, too, but hopefully that's something I can work on, at least. :)

The persistent sun breaks through the blind
And lights the notes I fail to write
I stare too solid at my pen
Until I'm waiting for the rain to fall again

I can rack my brain so hard
I'll feel my frontal lobe is scarred
So I'll forget the things I've said
And be left waiting for the rain to fall again

With the liquid pounding glass
I feel the words expand like gas
Forming clouds around my head
So my thoughts cannot be read

If I can't see things disconnect
Then I've nothing to correct
So I'll sit and carry on
Without a worry that the rain will stop

But the sun evaporates the fall
And throws its light upon us all
I can't relish this terrain
So I'm left waiting for the rain to fall again.

Do You Understand?

People seem to believe
Without an extra thought
That perfect means flawless

I prefer to believe
That the contrary is true
That perfect means problems

People should believe
With problems and shortcomings
That perfect means acceptance

I'd like you to believe
That if you accept what you are
Then perfect means you

Do you understand?

Damnesia

Forced from home by noise and alarm,
Unwanted intermissions induce fists full of harm,
Your workspace is packed up, transported away,
To a refuge of safety in words you could say,
Or write, or dictate, or just tumble around,
Specifics aren't something to worry about,
You reach your asylum, open your work,
Devastation clouds eyes like handfuls of dirt,
Between distraction and refuge something is lost,
Taken from homeland and bluntly forgot,
It will never be finished, an idea not explored,
You are left feeling hopeless and homeless and torn.

Lockdown

Batten the hatches, close down the doors,

Wind up the windows and tape down the floors,

Lock up for lockdown, swivel a key,

Scaffold the ceiling generously,

Light bulbs like onions spin hazardous wool,

Into lines of ‘tales are too eventful’,

Tables and chairs are not so alike,

As to fit in the space between shadow and light,

If paper makes parachutes, I’m okay to crash,

Into wires and lenses, from take-offs to ash,

Colours of cuboids stand solid, robust,

But they sink in the oceans with lies and mistrust,

Piles of peppers set fire to ice,

While dust rains through archways, if words might suffice,

Brainwaves and centuries alike and alone,

Within earsight and eyeshot, complexion takes throne,

Notable spotlights burn out in the skies,

Sautéing galaxies and pigs who pass by,

Calligraphic sentences to prison and life,

Are why they aspire to bullet or knife,

If poorly sliced vision offers sense of regret,

Then my clearly cut intake performs as offset,

Letters and numbers, painting concept,

Give me hours of practice, so I’m ever inept,

Broken guitar strings can always be played,

If numbers of equality can always be made,

And while rubber ducks swim in kitchenware sinks,

There’ll be locks drawn on doors with India ink,

And noting the tone of this graphite voice,

Comes a pen with an eagle to signify choice,

Beneath layers of lifetimes and deathtimes galore,

Sits a torn strip of sellotape on travertine floor.

I am struggling over the meaning of most of this, and a part of me just wants to sit and analyse it verse by verse, line by line, and word by word. I wrote the first line; the rest followed with relative ease, and little attention to what I was actually putting down there. "Hoorah! for fun and not revising things~" 

The World is Growing Smaller

The universe always expands,
And with it the world will grow,
But I cannot comprehend this change,
With each passing day there's increasingly less,
For me, the world grows smaller.

Time progresses, 
Stretches out,
I stay within doors and laze about,
My brainwaves attenuate,
For me, the world grows smaller

A song will pass into the charts,
Another joins, "A work of art",
They're all the same,
There is no change,
For me, the world grows smaller

The fish will swim into the glass,
Until the shoddy bowl will crack,
Her world floods out onto the floor,
It's a whole new place but she won't live,
Her life is falling shorter,
Her world is growing smaller

Bigfoot hangs inside his home,
A jagged, rocky, mountain dome,
The tracks of trains must pass on by,
"Let's blow the mountainside sky-high",
The walls collapse, Bigfoot is trapped,
His cave has tumbled under,
His world is growing smaller

The letters used in every book,
Passing as a major look,
They feel the same,
There's nothing new,
For me, the world grows smaller

The echoes of an ancient age,
Forgotten within the human rage,
The eyes of all forget to see,
What has, what was, what used to be,
Ideas grow, but logic shrinks,
For me, the world grows smaller.

An old-ish piece of writing, posted on dA, before I thought "Hm. What about that lonely blog of yours, then?" It was built mostly from reflective/conceptual thoughts, I think, and, as I recall, it hit a completely seperate idea to what I'd been aiming for, but, meh. So, that's another few-month-old poem which hasn't been lucky enough to sit through re-vision. :P Good day.

Alice...

I realise I've been absent, and don't quite have the time/effort to write something.

However, I've come across something I wrote one night, a few months ago. I'm not quite sure how much of it is accurate, and/or makes sense, but I feel some urge to not change it, in any way (Probably known otherwise as laziness. :P).

Here, for general amusement, or something of the sort, I give you 'Alice...'.

The time will come when I must slay

The Jabberwock on Frabjous Day

I am quite unsure that I will go ahead

With sending it to his fiery bed

But, alas, I have no choice

They will believe only the Alice's voice

And so along I will wander

A-finding many a-things to ponder

Including the youngest baby pig

And the queen's follower's preposterous wig

Flamingoes and hedgehogs to play croquet

A game which will not last the day

Until come the Red Queen's court to see

Who her majesty's jam tart did steal

The poor court frog with wife and kids

His head now floats in castle's ditch

And poor March Hare with guests so great

Who all arrive so terribly late

And the maddest hatter you ever did see

But travel by hat is such a treat

You cannot simply miss it out

For it is the most practical way to go about

The whitest rabbit who searched so hard

To find he had chosen the incorrect card

I am not the Alice, as they do say

And no Jabberwock will I ever slay

But the Cheshire Cat will not ever let off

Until its head is well cut off

And rolling down the cold stone steps

Stopping finally the queen-caused deaths

So what little choice do I have to make

But this crazy wonderland path to take?

Just, please.

I know it's hard,

It's harder than hell,

But I need you to breathe,

Need you to be well,

I know that it hurts,

Like I could never understand,

But I need you to think,

I need you to land,

I know that you're stuck,

In the depth and the dark,

But I need you to stop,

Can you place down your mark?

Can you stop for a moment,

And look deep through the scars,

Through the pain and the hurt,

To the sky and the stars?

And I need you to know,

That that rainbow is you,

But you need to be loved,

And love you I do,

I need you to realise,

That you're better than life,

But you don't need the bullet,

You don't need the knife.

What you need is the knowledge,

To know that you're great,

That you're brilliant and wonderful,

And it's never too late,

Too late to realise,

Too late to believe,

Just open your eyes,

Just let yourself see,

I need you to notice,

That high above all,

You can pull yourself up,

So it's okay to fall,

Please, take the notice,

When I write out these words,

That they're all meant for you,

That they need to be heard,

And I know it's not easy,

When you're down past your knees,

But I'll help you back up,

If you'll only let me,

Please.